0919

尼古丁麻痹了思绪
想你了
你在哪？

where are you?

不知為什麼
"愛情遊民"的網誌關閉了
每天看他的網誌都會有很多感觸
只是也不知為什麼它關閉了
或許他在忙
或許他正在著手做一些別的事
但希望不久的將來
能再見他的新作品



我還在找

今天無意瞄到有人似乎知道他的消息

可是我現在想要找到那篇文章卻不見

印象中

他是因為感情關掉無名

是真的嗎

我真的很想知道真正的答案

可是這像個沉入大海中的一個疑問

遊民如果你一直有看到大家的呼喊

可以給個聲音 讓我們知道你是平安

必竟 你帶給我們許多回憶及省思

090909?

One of my bestie finally in a relationship with his love one...
Hope they can be together will forever... =)
You should thx me, for putting QiiZ as one of my featured friends in fs huh? If not, i dun thk u two will know each other... lolx!

Louis & Qiiz

昨天晚上突然非常的想您,拿手機了....但我怕会打扰你,

很累, 终与睡着了...

從那天到今天, 我们已经少接触了...因为我知道你很忙

我好想妳, 妳知道嗎 ?

少了妳, 變得好安靜了..

我都会想之前跟妳聊天時候的內容, 也常常躺在椅子上想妳..

我通常都会乱乱想, 你对我说，不要乱想...想你就好~

但我很想知道你在想什么...

我一直告诉自己在消失之前, 要好好珍惜现在的妳..

未来的回忆, 发生过的事情都会刻骨铭心

我已经在珍惜..

时间突然静止，停格在那一瞬间

那个画面，那张—两个人走过的背影

原来，我还在

而你，也还在......希望你是真心的

其实我要的只是..你送我的 爱

Completely adapted from回忆..

Sorry bro, for copy the article u wrote, but i like it, really match my feeling for this long...

A word for you, precious what you have now, dun thk so much...
Jia you~

19.8.2009

I've lost my passion on blogging.

.future? i'm lost.

今天中午和媽咪吵架

我在和朋友通過即時通討論該選讀什麽科系
她突然就站在門口
破口就大罵
說我都已經沒有心要念書了
還討論什麽？
還說我每次都出街出到很遲囘
我承認這是我不對
但是
說我沒有心要念書
那就錯了

媽
我需要的是你們的意見
給予我信心
你這個兒子缺乏的就是自信
我對未來很迷惘
我真的不知道要念什麽
該説是能念什麽
對不起
去年在taylor時沒有很用功
沒能拿到很好的成績
完成念牙醫的志願
我很沒用

對不起.

我只會弄你們不開心
尤其是你,我愛的你.....
我常弄你不開心吧
因爲我的情緒化

....今晚沒有得失眠
因爲明天得載弟妹去補習
T_____T

晚安~

我们要学会珍惜 要珍惜爱情
不要把真心当作游戏

我们要学会珍惜 要珍惜自己
不要再让下个爱你的人殇心

还记不记得 那天好聚好散
我好心要递面纸给你 你却爱面子不拿

我们之间 还有多少 心里的话
三杯黄汤下肚之后 再继续说吧

与其说 我们都是过来人
不如说 我们都曾经当过烂人

不得不承认 我们都不是乖宝宝 好学生
可是不代表 不能进化成更好的人

一起努力过曾经追求过的梦
不管过了多久 都牢记在心中

不需再多说 一个拥抱就够
我的眼神 只有你懂 它代表什么

一起在岁月里面酌不完的酒
不管现在未来我们成不成功

此刻的拥有 是我的身边
还有你们这些朋友

.let's start from here.

有人抽煙是為了思念
有人抽煙是一種沉淪
有人抽煙只是因為一種習慣

而我抽煙是為了麻痹

它麻痹了我的腦子
麻痹想念你的絕望......

當灰色的氣體吸入我的肺中
我就再沒有多余思念的空間給自己。

當灰色的憂郁吐出來
我竟能借以甩掉那留在腦子里的背影

我上癮了

沉迷在可以不去想念你的時間

沉迷在失去自我的空間

天空陰陰沉沉 窗外整片灰色的陰影
與灰煙融合 飄搖在半空中

而后再消散無蹤 我想
我是對這種感覺上癮了

一種失去依歸的游離感

...Janet.筱瑜™

神經了

中邪了

現在是淩晨四點鐘

我竟然剛做完家務來

再次失眠

沒事做，就去掃地抹地

整理客廳，弟弟妹妹的書桌

還把食用水煮足來. =.="

完成后都覺得很不可思議

*汗~

今天bbq后的狀況不是很好

心情受到不小的打擊

很不開心

很莫名其妙

很想哭

抱歉，我又吸煙了...

我沒有不要過去陪你

我和一班朋友在一起

當天是我當司機

要去哪不是我自己能決定的

若我自己單獨駕車

我一定過去陪你

再説

我真的不是很喜歡去isabella

因爲在那遇到認識的人的機會很大

不管是喜歡的，討厭的

都有很大機會在那碰面

*古晉真的很小，夜生活除了clubbing，yumchar的地方也不見得多

我也沒有小氣

當時我並沒有因爲什麽而生氣你

我沒有

問你和我聊信息會不會悶

並不是在影射你的敷衍

不明白爲何你會說和我聊天很sien?

說你不想聊，因爲擔心會得罪我?

我不明白..

到頭來

今天，對你的了解沒有增加

因爲基本上

我們都沒有真正的聯絡

我了解

我的性格真的有些問題

我會改過

對不起!

請不要不理我

已經沒有勇氣再被同樣的手法擊退了　

不知不覺已經進入july了

才月頭就已經有三位朋友生日 xD

七月二號

.康泰.

19嵗咯

Happy Birthday!

七月三號

evelyn.慧慧

也是19嵗咯 ^^

Happy Birthday!

七月四號

cherlin.tzia

18 year old ady

no more underage huh? xD

祝你們生日快樂

雖然其中的已經沒了聯係

但很高興你曾經進入過我的生命中

留下的回憶是珍貴的

已經5點多了

我是超人嗎

嚴重的睡眠不足

造成右眼袋腫了個肉球

*丑死~

T_____T

好个失眠的夜晚
不
该说早晨了
时间漂白了很多无谓的所有
唯独某些曾深刻感动的回忆

,sleepless night.

第二晚的失眠 xD
大家都在熟睡當中了
我卻在飃來飃去
我是指在網絡世界中游離啦

生活過得真的很煩悶
去臺灣升學的計劃已經泡湯了
計劃改變
選擇了土木工程系
說真的
我還不知道這是不是個對的選擇
還是我該選擇生物科技
朋友們
給點意見好嗎 :'(

或許
我根本不是念這些科系的料
是不是應該選擇一些比較屬於藝術性的科目
我也不知道

你說
我應該要在office工作的
呵呵
我也不懂
我的未來
我沒有個概念
一切順其自然吧

剛才的剛才和你通了電話
打到我credit剩rm0.02
說真的
還真不想就這樣挂斷 T___T
開始想念了。
是時候等拿到學生証后
去申請一個digi campus pack了 xD

該去躺一躺了
至少讓眼睛休息休息
明天晚上還有function呢
朋友生日，有bbq
^^

...晚安...

.Let me heal your wound.

已經是清晨五點多了
但我還是沒有絲毫的睡意
沒辦法入睡
腦子裏一大堆的事情飛來飛去的

到陽臺去透氣
點了一支煙
想讓自己腦袋麻痹一陣
乘機睡下
但還是失敗了
還是睡不下

原諒我
我又失眠了
我又吸煙了
好想念你

我會陪你放下這一切
就算到了最後
我得到的是一無所有
我也不在乎
只要生命中有你的陪伴
有我陪伴你的這段回憶存在就夠了
我不會要求很多
只要我感覺我存在的價值就足夠了

我說到，我就要做到
別為我煩心
你扛住的包袱已經夠大夠重了
我不想加重它
別害怕我會傷心難過
和你經歷過的
這真的算不了什麽

快六點了
是時候躺下來裝睡了
家人就快起身了
被發現我還在電腦前
肯定找死 xD

.....天亮說晚安

loving u

Sorry for the damnly dead blog
will be updated soon!

Thinking of you.♥.

Hey loves...

Sorry for the dead blog.

I'm here again.
Wake up at 8 today, quite miracle as usually i don't wake up that early, i mean, automatically, not woken up by someone. Gong gong came just after i wake up, he want me to drive him down to town to take medicine. He made an appointment with the doctor and need to reach there by 10.
Done my house-chores and drive Gong gong to town.

Had a nice chat with Gong gong. He told me many things, advised me to study hard if really have the chance to study at Taiwan.

公公：“阿超啊，你有空要看看书喔，不然去台湾忘记怎么念书了哦！” 我：“嗯，我有。有看买回来的课本”（很不好意思，其实很少看）

公公：“你在路上驾车要小心啊，驾车若没有要割车就驾左边去。还有，小心别遇到路霸啊，如果不 小心撞到人家的车，不要硬硬和他吵，和他好好的说，先打给你的四伯啊（四伯是jpj）。如果遇到有人不爽你割车，他瞪你，你不要看他。好好的驾你车，让路给他先过就好.........”


It's nice to chat with Gong gong, he told me many things about his past. When passed through many places in Kuching, he said that there are very big difference compare with 20yeas before. Especially the number of vehicles on road.

After back home, my nightmare started. Why i say that? Look at the pictures below and you will understand why. God damn it. =.="

Nah, know what is this fish named? 黑苍鱼咯.... 我处理过白苍，没什么问题，可是这个.... =.="
It's scales are FUCKING DAMN MANY!!! AND DAMN TINY!!! DAMN HARD TO REMOVE!!! WTF!!!
I very dulan lo when cleaning the fish. Zzzz

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Btw, today is Jie Yi's birthday, remember him? The one who took the damn sohai and kuso pictures with me on the other day. The lengzai. ^^

Went to celebrate JieYi's birthday with the gang. Lucas, Alex, Syen, Fuifui, LeeNa, and LiXuan. Ate steambot at MyHouse Steambot (杏花村火锅） near Jalan Pending.

After dinner, headed to Jalan Song
Photo session...

Richard and Colly came and joined us.

Candid shot.

The lovely birthday boy and his birthday cake.







































Cute!? ^^












The Fantasy 4 during secondary school, glad that we are together again.








Say "cheese"!!!!

Had a happy and unforgetful moment with them. I love all my friends.

Me and Colly

Sigh, this post should be written and post by 6th of May, but due to many reason, now only i post up. Sorry for the late update!

Posted on 30th May, but the date i have adjust to meet the date of the event happened.

Signing off.

Synchronizing with loves.♥

泡了杯何人可晚安凉茶，我又坐在电脑前面潜水了，毫无目的的闲逛，心情没有很复杂。好啦，继续写我的网志，让无聊的我报告一下我无聊又平淡的生活呗~ 若无聊的你们，不嫌弃这无聊的文章，欢迎光临。 ^^



Hello loves,

My day started with a gust of stinking and disgusting lacquer paint. My home is currently renovating, all the walls are repainted including the roof. Can't really stand the smell, wondering if i keep on smelling the lacquer, i might get nose cancer very soon.

Today is tuesday, as usual, have to go to town, helping daddy to be his office boy. Mission for today, went to Lembaga Hasil to pay daddy and company's income tax, then went Public Bank to bank in money to kor kor, then went Sarawak Veternarian Department to buy some permit thingy. Lastly, went to Natural Avenue and Allianz Insurance company to hand in something. Zzzz, if like normal time, i'm alone to do these all thingy, but today quite special, Richarh was so kind to acompany me while he's having offday every tuesday. Thx ya bro.

Bumped up with Sharon while paying the income tax, pity her, same as me, helping her daddy. But she is the office girl, not boy. Lolz

Went for a supper with Richard after i done all my jobs at KFC. Got 25% discount cuz he have the member card. ^^

Drive him home at 7 as he have to prepare to go Wenwen's birthday dinner.

Happy 20th Birthday ya Wenwen. ^^
Nah, sing a birthday song for you, as i can't make it to your birthday dinner.

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to WenWen
Happy birhtday to you.
Wooooot~

P/s, takde sound la, u sing out yourself k? lolx.

She is my new friend who i just know few weeks ago. Richard intro to me. She's a nice girl though. And hawt. lolx.
*Helping you to promo. hahaha
Anyway, happy birthday to you AGAIN!!!


Ohya, before i forgot, tomorrow is 6th of May, it's my bestie, Jie Yi birthday, as a OC, I have to plan where to go to celebrate for him. Update with pictures will be post on tomorrow night! Hopefully la, if im not that tired. Hehe.... Pls looking forward for the update ya.

Thx for supporting my blog.



所谓的爱情，
是从小小的关心开始
当关心逐渐萌芽后
会开始对于他的所有事情产生好感
及时有关他的事情已经了解
但对他的好感和疑问却不曾减少
你的身边是否有这样的人呢？
如果出现了，就代表着某个人在向你传达他的爱意。

---------摘自恋爱的142堂课.

Signing off.

Once been hurt, the wound never heal.♥

Hello loves..

I'm here again. ^^

Wake up at 8-ish. Gong Gong came and wake me up. Was told to go bank in, and remind me to bring Wai Gong Wai Po, Xiao Jiu and Xiao Jiu mu to airport at 10.

Felt damn tired cause had a bad time last night, can't sleep. Msg her, no reply, slept dy i know.
Got myself washed and dressed up. Done the housework, as usual. After that cleaned the car, put on the P sticker onto it as i seldom drive my daddy's favourite Benz.

Went to RHB, this is my work that i do every monday and thursday, damn crowded there, took a number and passed the money to the banker, told her that i will come to collect the bank in slip afterward. Quite familiar to them ady, cuz i always come here. ^^

Went to Wai Gong's house, drive them to airport and msged her. At last reply, but the tone sound very cold. Sigh...
Drive home to prepare lunch after that.

虽然你说没关系
但我了解，你对我已经少了那份好感
你说，一切顺其自然
我想，已经顺不到很自然的爱情部份
对于我
你不再相信我
一切都是我自找吧
我该死

At night, drive didimeimei to 7th mile tuition, drive the damn blue range rover, really scare it will break down like the previous white one. Somemore, the radio in the car can't function, damn boring driving that car. Mum don't let me drive the Benz. Zzzz~

While waiting the two finish tuition, went to airport starbuck alone, online there, alone. I'm alone, once again.

Wondering what is the real name of this bean? Mum asked me and Zhang Yao to pick it. Preparing for the soup tomorrow.

Damn tired today, not enough sleep, so i decided to sleep earlier. Nightz loves.

不安，单恋，邂逅
以及
那些遗憾的瞬间


signing off.

Only if the past can be changed. ♥

倘若时光能够倒流...
倘若历史可以重写.....
我想让你知道.....
我并没有玩弄你的感情.....

Dizzy day and unlucky day. WTF!

Waken up by mum just before 7am. Walao eh, i slept at 3-ish yesterday night, having very deep panda-ish eyes today. Mission for today started at 7.30am. Drive didi meimei for malay tuition in town.

Reached there by 8.15. Messaged her and asked her whether she need me to fetch her to work or not cuz don't want her to drive back at late night, quite dangerous. Fetched her at 9sth and headed to Kenyalan shopping complex.

After that yumchar at Crown.

*The place where the unwanted incident happened. Sigh.....

....我真的不想解释很多...
....解释好像在掩饰什么...
....而我没有在掩饰什么...
....你要相信我就相信我...
....你不相信我,也没办法...

Drive home at 11sth, Alex called, asking me for badminton session at Arena Court. Went to fetch Richard. But then the fucking damn lauzy car suddenly mati near his shop, cannot ignite the engine at all! WTF!

Luckily Richard's father is a mechanic, he helped to change the car battery and told me the problem need to be solved a.s.ap. Drive home slowly without switching the air-cond on cuz scare it might use up the car battery. Something wrong with the bearing causing the car cannot be charged. Zzzz~
Nearly accident. Felt damn dizzy and moody. *I'm still in one piece. don't worry.


















Went to pick some coconut and prepared coconut drinks for family, quite refreshing. ^^


7sth, mum drive me to 17th mile and met up with JinJin, follow his car and went to pick Richard and JinWen at Sentosa. Headed to Crown to fetch Colly as well. Planned to go for movie but cancelled. Went to Kado for yamchar. Had my proper meal for today there.
*Didn't eat for breakfast and lunch.

Sorry Richard, i'm not in the mood, that's why. Sigh~ Tell me what should i do, to let her believe in me once again?

失去联络满长一段时间的小雨竟然“奇迹”般的找我聊天，我会说奇迹，因为我根本没有想过她还会记得我。 这至少，是今天唯一能让我感到欣慰的事吧.

p/s. M3iyee sorpoh把我的阿瓜照拿去edit, 听说还弄到满美的？她msn男生朋友都说很美，我炸到！期待明天看到你的作品咯傻婆！

失。眠
躺久了总会睡着的
而人
爱久了，却不一定是你的

不爱，也是一种爱。

大家晚安~
美梦~
signing off
2.55 am
2009年5月4日

Hold me tight, i can't effort to lose u ♥

Boring day indeed. Woken up by my damn annoying sister, *with her damn annoying voice. (eakkkkk~)

Mum asked me to go to Grandpa's farm to pick some "Fire Dragon Fruit" (火龙果). And found out this.
*I think the squirrels in my area must be very healthy, and never suffer from constipation, nearly 95% of the F.D.Fruit were eaten! Wondering how they climb up the plant, as it's full of thorns. =.="

.....Know what's that onot?

Went to town with daddy, and met up with mummy and didi mei mei for dinner with at Imperial Duck by LokTian. Food were delicious, just that the quantity, not so satisfied. *forget to take any pic, tsk!

After dinner, back home with mum, daddy go enjoy his Saturday night. Mum dropped me at Siburan there, met up with Jie Yi, Wei Yiet, Alex, Sze Yian and Fui Fui, went yumchar. Chit-chatting, enjoying the time with 'em.

Bumped up with Lucas, something really complicated, caused him didn't sat down and join us.

Back home at about 11-ish. Alex, Jie yi and Wei Yiet want to play dotA, didn't join them, Jie Yi fetched me home.


p/s, do i look like gay in this pic? Mum said so. sob...

Girl, i purposely don't want answer ur call, sorry, not in the mood.
Maybe...
Because of you.



.Signing off.

Life is a crazy ride and nothing is guaranteed ♥

Hello loves,

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Today is Labour day, though so called Labour Day, not every one is having their holiday. Plan ruined, can't go for movie with her, thinking of mating Jie Yi and Wan Jun failed.
*tsk tsk!
Honestly, i'm not very happy with the result, but i have to respect Jie Yi's decision and accept him.

Thought it's going to be a boring day, then by 6pm, Alex called out and ask me to go Kuching to meet up, as he just back from Matriculation at Labuan days before. Called Jie Yi and ask him to drive cuz my car suddenly low battery, can't stand, he is taking his labour day leave too. =.="

Fetched Fui-Fui, Sze Yian and Lee Na and went to town. Lotsa lame stuff happened thou. Alex drive his own car with his gf, he went for movie, couple world, so we decided not to disturb them yet.

Went to tHe Spring shopping mall, bumped into Wan Jun while we watching the Spring-Summer fashion show 2009.

p/s, one of the model is damn freaking HOT! omg~ Nose-bleeding. Regret didn't take any pic.

Lepak around the mall, crowded, mega sales around.

Alex called when he finished the movie, decided to yamchar + dinner at Kado. Left tHe Spring and fetched Li Sian.
Finally met up with Alex. Eating, chit-chatting, laughing, having fun time.

Alex and his gf, Shu Teng leaf earlier as the girl had curfew and need to back home as early as posible.

Went to Malaysia-China Friendship Park at Jalan Song after the dinner.
Being sohai for hours there....


Pictures.
p/s. really damn kuso and sohai.


Spring-Summer Fashion Week 2009. xP

We took many pictures there, almost didn't waste any time there. Quite many people hanging around the park, but we were too muka tebal and keep on zilian-ing.

(From the back) : Fui Fui
(Middle) : Sze Yian, Jie Yi
(Front) : Li Sian, Lee Na, kido

Nah, back home at 12-ish.
Teeheeee.... that's all for today.

Signing off
kido.

I need you. ♥

Hello loves,

Photos of trip around Sarawak last month, school holidays. Nah, lazy to write anything.

The motel we lived

Beach

Brunei's kopitiam


The 6 stars hotel in Brunei

The brunei Village above the water.
.
.


Another beach

Night view without edit, Bintulu

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That's all, with love. Captured and edited by myself. niCe?

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cut my hair short, back part i mean, a lil bit bob head.

Hey there my loves.

Blog, will be updated soon.
I'm exhausted
Had my IELTS test this morning
Wish me luck and pray for me to get higher band!

Girl, i miss you lots.

Urgent

征求

长高的方法！
快点教我啦！！！！

等一个人的咖啡

如果爱情里的难听的“对不起”能用“我想你”来替代
那，我宁愿孤独一个人也不想听见你说“我想你”..

*....我又单恋了

现在的我，
手里的汤匙正胡乱搅拌着浮在咖啡上的奶晕，
金属与马克杯的瓷缘合奏出没有章法的敲击声，
叮叮叮当，当叮当叮。
就好像我现在的心情，没有节奏，
却很想表达些什么。

好像已经成为了习惯，
每逢有牙医appointment的日子
或得帮爹地跑腿办事的日子
很自然的
手中握着的驾驶盘
好像已经事先设定好的那样
往熟悉的方向开去
抄同样的小路
坐在同样的位子
喝这一个人的咖啡


寂寞的我在寂寞的下午
寂寞的想着不寂寞的你
寂寞的风
寂寞的雨
寂寞地数着每个不寂寞的路人
而寂寞的下午
寂寞地泡在咖啡因里面

等一个人的咖啡
我在等待一个她的出现
陪伴我喝完这杯拿铁
让寂寞的马克杯不用再寂寞地陪着寂寞的我

究竟我等的那一个人
几时才会出现
陪我喝杯咖啡呢
天晓得

莫怪我花心
莫怪我爱搞暧昧的性格
我只是习惯了有个特别的人陪伴，有人陪我喝咖啡的日子

许多爱情小说开宗明义都说了
恋爱最甜蜜的部分就是暧昧
那种状况不明
彼此猜测的过程
往往让人脸红心跳
往往叫人连做梦都无法忘记每次说话时的紧张。

虽然
大多和我有暧昧的女生
都不曾和我见过面
但那区区几封的短讯
都能让我开心
让我怀念好长一段时间

或许
我是个很怀念过去的人吧
某些人的短讯
我都会留住
收藏在手机短讯信箱内
偶尔，不开心时，打开来看看
都能让我心里疏解了不少
虽然，大部分的短讯对象
都已经离我而去
但，值得回忆的部分当然得留住
也许，我只是怀念那一段的过去吧

回忆
就像经年累月的拼图游戏
不管散落在地上的碎片有多少
持之以恒
总是能逐一捡拾回来
砌成原来完整的模样
总会到那一刻的

记忆的拼图不是死的
记忆是逐渐累加
越来越多
越来越复杂

一边要努力回忆起旧的部分
一边又要把握正在渐渐成为生命的那部分

玩过拼图的人都知道
复杂的图形反而容易砌成
因为每一块都是那么的独特
很快就能知道它应放置的座标

而越是简单的图形
例如蔚蓝的天空或青翠的草地
往往都让人想破了头才能拼成

所以我始终相信
我和她们的回忆
虽然只是淡淡的暧昧
简简单单的只是通过科技产品的联络
却是很珍贵，很难得的
因为，它犹如蔚蓝的天，青翠的草，是拼图游戏中最难完成的部分

因为每一片的记忆都太朴直，单纯，
让人许久都搞不明白上一块和下一块之间的关系
就像暧昧中的我们
永远都搞不清楚彼此的关系
暧昧不清的关系
虽然是那么的让人摸不着头
却带着淡淡的甜蜜

逐渐见底的马克杯啊
辛苦你了
寂寞的陪伴了我整个下午
多亏有你
让寂寞的我，在寂寞的下午
没有那么的寂寞
谢谢你马克杯
希望下次来找你时
你不再是孤单的陪我
而是也有个伴
陪着我，和我的她

broken strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anything
When I love you,
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking,
It’s the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train when it’s too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell something that ain’t real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late (too late)

You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain’t real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again